Leave the door wide open…

Every time I sit down and try to compose a coherent blog post it just turns into a massive train wreck of gibberish.

No, no. MORE than usual.

So listing it is…

1.) Last Friday morning I woke up with a scratchy throat, which got progressively worse throughout the day, and now I’m on day eight of nondescript plague. It’s like it’s trying to be a chest cold, but it’s spinning its wheels at the bottom of the hill. It’s not quite as miserable as the chest cold from hell I had a couple of years ago (and lasted well over a month), but I’m ready for it to be gone. I wake up countless times a night as it is, only now I’m coughing and wheezing and struggling to breathe through my nose that has apparently decided to swell shut. It’s fun. And by “fun” I mean EFFFFFFFF YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU.

2.) I used its/it’s so many times in that I’m pretty sure I used the wrong one at some point.

3.) The dire need of an update to my blog template is starting to drive me crazy. But every time I open the style sheet for the new template I want to use, I sit and stare at it, at a complete loss for what I should be doing with it. It’s fun times. And by “fun times” I mean EFFFFFFFF. YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU.

4.) Every time an update for iTunes comes out—especially a whole new version number—I drag my feet in installing it because inevitably things are going to be even more fucked up than they were in the previous version. And I’m always right. I finally allowed it to update and it was an even bigger clusterfuck than I had anticipated. It’s [mostly] figured out now, but still…ugh. If I didn’t have thousands of DRM protected songs I’d lose access to, I’d put more effort into finding a possible alternative.

5.) Also the new red icon for iTunes just further proves iTunes is actually Satan at work.

6.) I’m typing all of this one handed and the first time I tried to type Satan I actually typed Sara. Apparently I’M THE DEVIL.

7.) I stopped typing mid-sentence while writing because I had to document progress.

Bob looked up from his computer, shaking his head, and told me, “That’s what screenshots are for.”

Yes, I know. But it’s just not the same.

This is only the second project (to my recollection) I’ve hit that word count with, without all of the side story/back story/what-if story/what-have-you story. It’s a slow build and there are gaping holes in the narrative, but it’s nice to see considering I feel like I’m not making any progress on anything at all.

8.) I picked up a story idea that’s been sitting around for a long time and started reconstructing the character list. I had some new…ish ideas and things started falling into place. Then I stuck in a character I hadn’t originally planned for (but fit surprisingly well nonetheless) and suddenly the entire dynamic of the plot changed and it is not at all where I intended it to go and I’m not sure how I feel about that. Do I go with it and see what happens? Or do I work things back to the original plan? Or do I stuff it back in the stalled folder and forget about it for awhile again?

9.) Since the writer’s block has been overstaying its welcome around here, I find myself digging through projects that haven’t been touched in a very long time. And I spend a lot of time staring down the seek therapy folder, poking at things that exist solely for my demented entertainment. There is one in particular that keeps reeling me back in—a collection of scenes and conversations with a group of characters that don’t have an actual story to hold them. (Scenes without stories.) There is some writing in there that I REALLY LIKE for various reasons and I keep wondering if I could somehow turn it into a legitimate story project. I’ve done it before with other plans (and varying degrees of success). I’m just having a difficult time figuring out how to fill in certain holes that would actually make it work.

10.) In my oxygen-deprived insomnia this week, I started watching The Flash. Why? I don’t know. It seemed like a good idea at three in the morning. It’s a superhero show, so it has its campy tendencies, and it’s not bad, but some of the acting can be a little bit rough and wooden. However, I’m a sucker for Tom Cavanagh and his ri-god-damn-diculous blue eyes. Also Grant Gustin is precious (and so young) and plays awkward and nerdy quite well. And I love the character Cisco. Cisco is awesome.

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