My brain is in a weird place, as it has been for quite some time now. I’ve been trying to write posts and all I get is incoherent drivel or bitchy tirades and I have no desire to post either one. Once upon a time I posted all of that shit (see: pretty much the entirety of my Live Journal) but I don’t depend so heavily on blogging to outlet the horrors running rampant in my head anymore. I now have a husband who forces it out of me on a regular basis so it doesn’t get so pent up until it just explodes all over my corner of the internet. Blogging is still an outlet for frustrations and all that, but it’s not my lifeline anymore. I’d rather post inane rambling and giddy flailing on things that are right in my life. Writing about the good stuff is much more satisfying these days than bitching and moaning about the bad. Bitching and moaning are my specialty, but I’d like to put a little more effort into other things.
That being said…I give you nine things that are currently on my fixation list…
1.) Sleep phones.
Bob bought these for me a few years ago when he saw them on Think Geek. He instantly thought of me and ordered them post haste. The actual headphones are flat so you don’t feel them digging into your ears when you lay on them. It’s just like wearing a regular fleece headband…with a wire sticking out the back. I don’t use them every night, but I’ve been using them more often as of late. I can listen to music to distract my obnoxious asshole of a brain and relax to sleep (eventually) without the headphones inflicting pain on my already defective ears.
Sheep is the Sleep Phones mascot. He is soft and cuddly and has a pocket in his back for holding your Sleep Phones when you’re not using them. Alternatively, he holds my iPod while I’m wearing the headband so it doesn’t get lost in the bed. (Also, he comes in a box with an air hole and a tag that says, “Cuddles Please.” The Sleep Phones kids…they are my people.)
Sheep also wears my Andy Grammer guitar pick when I’m not wearing it. He also enjoys naps and fist-bumps from bears. And I’m pretty sure he moves around when he’s alone because I find him in a lot of interesting positions that I know I did not specifically pose him in.
Though sometimes he is in cahoots with a certain Bear we live with…
3.) Writing ridiculous fanfiction.
You heard me. I’ve admitted to writing fanfiction before. It’s fun. Judge me all you want. IDGAF. When the writing slows and becomes a [bigger] struggle, toying around with fanfiction is a good way to get something down on the page and work out the crazy rattling around in my head. None of it can really be classified as a cohesive story. It’s all a series of [mostly] unconnected random conversations that crop up in my over-loaded brain. To be honest, some of my favorite lines I’ve written generally come out of fanfiction ventures. Writing is writing. As long as I’m writing something, I feel like things are right in the world.
4.) New Ryan Star music.
I still want a full length album from him, but I’ll take a five song EP in the interim. Animals is a little more alternative than his last LP, but it’s still very much Ryan Star and it’s some very honest and raw song writing. He is so ridiculously good at what he does and the voice is like a punch in the gut. (See: Deep-rooted emotional attachment to music.)
5.) Darren Criss.
Honestly, I have no idea how I ended up watching that damn Glee video. I have no memory of what I was actually watching on Youtube in the middle of the night when I got distracted by some kid in a private school uniform singing a Katy Perry song, but it escalated quickly. We won’t get into the epic levels of fixation going on over here, but crikey. Darren Criss is quite possibly one of the most adorable little things ever. There is something about the voice on this kid that hits all the right triggers in my music obsessions. (Which kind of sounds way dirtier than it actually is.) Add in the fact that he is snarky and dorky and shameless and tiny and adorable…I just want to smoosh him and pinch his cheeks and muss up his epic hair. Also the eyes (and the eyelashes). They are ri-god-damn-diculous.
My ears do not cooperate with headphones. Regular headphones don’t work with glasses and earbuds don’t fit. They constantly fall out, or hurt like hell, or create too much pressure and suction, or…any number of complaints. I was perusing headphones on…some store website (Target?)…and stumbled upon Yurbuds. After a little research, I found they make earbuds specifically geared for women—as in small ears. The covers come in different sizes and they look like little, stumpy elephant trunks. I found them at Target for about $30 and they are awesome. They don’t hurt, they don’t create suction and pressure, they DON’T FALL OUT WHEN I BREATHE, the sound is good (I’m no pompous ass audiophile), and they come in pretty colors. It was $30 well spent.
7.) Red vs Blue toes.
My toes are almost always painted. Nobody sees them but Bob because I can’t stand to be barefoot (sensory overload to the nth degree), but my toes are pretty much always painted. Have been for years. My goto color scheme as of late has been Red vs Blue. If you have to ask why, you don’t know me at all. I have a couple different reds and blues, but I’m partial to Essie Aruba Blue and Jag-u-are. It’s $8 a bottle but I finally had to concede that the more expensive polish does actually last longer than the cheaper stuff. With a protein base coat and a quick-dry top coat I get a solid week out of the stuff instead of a day or two before it starts to chip. Though I only use base/top coat on my fingers. Polish lasts forever on my toes regardless of brand. Also, it’s so bold and shiny and red and blue.
8.) Green tea.
I never used to like tea. And then Bob started drinking it in the morning before work. So I decided to give it a try. Now I drink it more than he does. We have a few different brands and flavors, but I mostly stick to green tea. I found one that doesn’t taste like smelly dead fish or look like a steaming cup of urine—Good Earth green tea ginseng and citrus. I drink it mostly when I’m up in the middle of the night. It’s kind of a placebo anxiety treatment. It doesn’t actually do anything to douse the anxiety, but I like to pretend.
9.) The bed.
We’ve had our bed for a little over two months now. It hasn’t solved all my sleep problems, but it has alleviated a lot of my sleep related pain. I can lay on my left side without wanting to rip my leg out at the hip after less than five minutes. And when I wake up one of the several dozen times a night, I can shift into a different position and get comfortable again. It also helps that it’s a king-size bed so we can both sprawl and not clobber each other. And there’s not a Grand Canyon-esque sinkhole in the middle of it. It’s a Serta iComfort (Acumen) memory foam mattress. We went with the iComfort over the Tempurpedic because of the “cooling gel” properties. (Also intarweb research rated the former higher than the latter.) Our bedroom stunk like wet paint (or memory foam) for about a week due to “off gassing” but it was only really potent the first day or so. It came with a 120-night trial, but we’re thoroughly satisfied with our purchase.