{"id":10835,"date":"2023-11-10T16:46:41","date_gmt":"2023-11-10T22:46:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/?p=10835"},"modified":"2024-11-05T00:13:02","modified_gmt":"2024-11-05T06:13:02","slug":"one-year","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/blog\/2023\/11\/10\/one-year\/","title":{"rendered":"One Year."},"content":{"rendered":"

It has been one full year since Joe<\/a><\/b> died.<\/p>\n

November 4, 2022.<\/p>\n

It feels both like an eternity since that day and only a matter of a few weeks.<\/p>\n

It has been three months<\/a><\/b> since we buried him next to our [paternal] grandparents.<\/p>\n

People like to write essays about grief and all of the revelations and lessons they’ve learned and so much of it really reads like everything else on the internet: carefully curated and overly polished, full of algorithm pleasing buzz words.<\/p>\n

As much as I scrutinize every last word I type, high-shine varnish has never been my thing.<\/p>\n

I keep trying to come up with something to write about the first full year since my brother died. I want to claim I have something intelligent or insightful to say about grief, but I really don’t.<\/p>\n

Grief is excruciating, exhausting, and ugly.<\/p>\n

It’s not as all-consuming as it was in the early weeks. I’m learning to integrate it into the everyday, letting it coexist with everything else. The ball in the box<\/a><\/b> has more room to move around these days.<\/p>\n

It still hurts. I’m still angry. I don’t think I will ever fully accept why<\/i> he’s gone.<\/p>\n

I still think about him every single day.<\/p>\n

I don’t think that will ever change.<\/p>\n

\"[Golf<\/center><\/p>\n

—<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It has been one full year since Joe died. November 4, 2022. It feels both like an eternity since that day and only a matter of a few weeks. It has been three months since we buried him next to our [paternal] grandparents. People like to write essays about grief and all of the revelations and lessons they’ve learned and so much of it really reads like everything else on the internet: carefully curated and… Keep reading…One Year.<\/span><\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":10845,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"fifu_image_url":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/media\/blog\/2023pics\/golfclubs.png","fifu_image_alt":"Golf was Joe's one true love.","iawp_total_views":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[47,238,81],"tags":[239],"class_list":["post-10835","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-family","category-grief","category-scars-souvenirs","tag-239","content-layout-excerpt-thumb"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/media\/blog\/2023pics\/golfclubs.png","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10835","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10835"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10835\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11506,"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10835\/revisions\/11506"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/10845"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10835"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10835"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.getalifebooks.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10835"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}