Someday I will get this blog properly formatted and build the rest of the website around it. I don’t have a clue as to when this elusive “someday” might be, but it would be nice if it was sooner than later. I have my CSS code written. I just need to figure out how to fix it to render properly in browsers other than Firefox.
Bear wants to work with me on writing PHP code for the site itself. Meaning, I’ll tell him what I want it to look like, he’ll write the code. I don’t know the first thing about PHP, so if I’m going to have a website that uses it, it’s not going to be me who codes it. He also says he can create a blogging client that’s completely customizable to my preferences so I won’t even need Blogger or any other licensed platform to use as my base for the actual blog. I don’t know how long it would take him to write the code for the site the way I want it, but we’d have to actually sit down to work on it in order to have some idea of what it will take to get it done. That will be the biggest hurdle right there, methinks.
In the meantime, I should be putting together the rest of the content I plan to have on the site. I have some general ideas of what I actually want, but I haven’t put anything into tangible form yet. My overall plan is to have an all-inclusive portfolio, combining all of my prior website pipe dreams into one complete site. Blogging, writing, music commentary, general geekery, and probably some other topics I’ve always wanted to put into website form and never have and/or let die due to lack of updates and content.
It doesn’t help that I apparently have no attention span for anything anymore. It takes forever to actually get anything done, granted I actually remember to do it. The more stressed I get, the worse the ADD gets, the more stressed I get, the worse the depression and anxiety get, the more stressed I get, the worse everything gets. And I’m one constant ball of stress seeing no progress and only collapse when it comes to the state of my mental health.
I really hope starting from scratch on my meds will actually work for all of this. I have another week of system “wash out” before I start fresh with a new prescription. Here’s hoping once I do start that, the mood will level off, the full-body pain will subside, the vice will vacate my chest and let go of my lungs, and my attention span will return at least to what I was before I started to really get shit-hammered with one metric fuckton of stress after another.
For now, I just attempt to relax enough to get comfortable in bed and fall asleep without the overwhelming urge to smash my head through a brick wall.
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