Category: grief

A Year in Review…2023…

Sara

Greetings from the Plague Lands. Two people who barely leave the house finally caught fucking Covid two days before Christmas. I cannot taste or smell anything. My whole back hurts. My voice sounds like I’ve been smoking for forty years. I am exhausted. Bob is mostly recovered with some residual symptoms. I am on the upswing, but lagging behind. As is usual when we get sick around here. I started working on this survey mid-December… Keep reading…A Year in Review…2023…

One Year.

Sara

It has been one full year since Joe died. November 4, 2022. It feels both like an eternity since that day and only a matter of a few weeks. It has been three months since we buried him next to our [paternal] grandparents. People like to write essays about grief and all of the revelations and lessons they’ve learned and so much of it really reads like everything else on the internet: carefully curated and… Keep reading…One Year.

Celebration of Life…

Sara

I shoveled dirt into my brother’s grave. I fucking hate that statement. Back in November, Mom told me that Joe was going to be cremated and in the spring he would be buried at the cemetery in Savage where my [paternal] grandparents are. Spring ended up being August 25th. It was a smaller crowd this time, but think it was meant to be that way. We gathered at the cemetery in the late morning. It… Keep reading…Celebration of Life…

A matter of time…

Sara

May marks six months since Joe died. I fucking hate that statement. It’s something that enters my brain every single day and it still feels like some sort of bad joke. Twice in the past month I have told two different people I don’t know that my brother died and I realized that was the first time I’ve uttered those words out loud to a person not in my isolated circle. And hoo boy, while… Keep reading…A matter of time…

Right behind the haze…

Sara

February. Fine. Whatever. I had six posts in January. Two were year-in-review and one was the monthly Last.fm stats. But there were three run-of-the-mill blog posts and I haven’t posted that much in one month since early 2016. Will it keep up? Who knows? I had a list of things I wanted to dump into a post and then the calendar turned over and the fourth of the month whacked me in the back of… Keep reading…Right behind the haze…

Always on the hunt…

Sara

IT’S SNOWING!!! Again. They’re running out of room to pile this stuff up when they plow and it’s only the middle of January. WordPress automatically installs a new default theme every year. And every year, WordPress yells at me for the security risk of having an inactive theme—which is last year’s automatically installed default theme. You made that mess, WordPress, YOU clean it up. (Yes, I know there are a multitude of reasons why WP… Keep reading…Always on the hunt…