it's a convoluted mess
It’s November. Right then. It’s nothing new, but I feel like I’m running on a looming deadline, but I have no idea what that deadline might be for or when it’s going to hit. I feel like this pretty much all the time, but lately it’s been a much stronger sense of dread and I have no idea what is causing the uptick. And I don’t like it. In fun news… FFXIV released patch 5.1… Keep reading…Bushels of bad habits…
Hey it’s September. I didn’t even realize it was Labor Day Weekend until Thursday when Bob mentioned the long weekend coming up. I knew it was close, but my brain hadn’t registered just how close. I’ve been in self-preservation mode all summer because Summertime SAD needs to take Zoloft and Lexapro and go die in a fire. If I could go back to April 27th, I would have never taken that first pill. Anyway. The… Keep reading…Burn the ashes…
I rarely listen to the radio. The only time anymore seems to be in the car on short trips when I don’t bring a CD to listen to, or the tiny window of time between starting the car and putting in a CD, then taking out the CD and turning off the engine. In those times, it’s either yapping DJs, commercials, or a song I’ve never heard before, but don’t like after a few bars…. Keep reading…Obsession called while you were out…
Summer lasted an eternity and my mental state took a brutal beating. September arrived, bringing hoodie weather and other good things, but the news cycle somehow felt even more dire than it has been these last two years and I am not processing it well at all, no matter how much I try to limit and filter things down. I have exactly zero faith that the “Blue Wave” will happen, or solve anything if it… Keep reading…Away from this place…
I cut the corner of my finger off with a kitchen scissors while opening a package of tofu. You heard me. It’s not nearly as bad as it sounds, but there was a lot of blood and I had to completely stop everything else I was doing to bandage my stupidity and find the missing piece of my finger so it didn’t end up in dinner. Small as it was, it was a rather impressive… Keep reading…It’s just another summer…
I’ve lost count how many times I’ve opened up a draft here and stared at the blank, white expanse for an indeterminate amount of time, then proceeded to close out the tab without touching the keyboard. I’ve been hacking and slashing at this post in particular for over a week now. Parts are irrelevant at this point, but it’s six-something in the morning and I’ve been awake since four-ish. Irrelevant sounds perfectly fine at the… Keep reading…Lost a bit of solid ground…