it's a convoluted mess
February. Week 46. My brain is complete mush. No-no, more than usual. I spent most of January battling shitty insomnia until my body said FUCK THIS SHIT and knocked me down hard. But a forced hard reset seems to have shifted my sleep back into something almost resembling that of a normal human, so…I guess I’ll take it while it lasts. The same thing happened at the beginning of last year, but it gradually slipped… Keep reading…Lack of motivation…
Last night I tried going to bed when Bob did. I got up after he fell asleep. I finally got back in bed around 6AM. Par for the course. Caboose My phone woke me up at eight o’clock with the first alarm of the day (I HAVE SO MANY ACHIEVABLES!). I was conscious enough to turn it off, but in my stupor apparently I thought something else needed to be done with my phone. I… Keep reading…Don’t fear the morning…
Is it really going to be 70 degrees this week? Or is the forecast just fucking with me? So the other night…Thursday, methinks…I had this dream. When I woke up in the middle of the night, I almost sat bolt-upright in bed and said out loud, “What. The Actual. FUCK?” Instead I just stared up at the ceiling, thinking to myself, Seriously…WTF do you smoke before bed, Sister? This can’t be good for your wellbeing…. Keep reading…And then I wound up in a padded room…
It’s 6:40 on a Saturday morning. I haven’t slept. I am currently not tired. My brain is completely WIRED. Part of me thinks I could just stay awake all day. But the other part of me knows I’ll hit a wall about mid-morning and crash. So I sit and debate what I should do. And curse my inability to maintain a human sleep schedule. And possibly keep hitting play on a couple of songs that… Keep reading…Alone would suit me just fine…
I watched Bob play a few parts of the first Mass Effect game. I don’t think he ever actually finished that play through. After Dragon Age II came out, Bioware gave free digital downloads of Mass Effect 2 to people who bought DAII. I played an hour or two of the game and…forgot about it. Now Mass Effect 3 is approaching release. I’m sure we won’t be playing it. Neither one of us is really… Keep reading…Okay what does that even mean?
…today is not “someday.” I just don’t even pretend that I am capable of keeping a sleep schedule that somewhat resembles human anymore. I made bacon on Friday. We always make bacon in the oven because it is much easier and far less messy than cooking on the stove top. I was mixing real bacon with turkey bacon and despite cooking at a lower temperature (for less time) I somehow managed to burn some of… Keep reading…Someday I will live on a human time clock…